Growing up, I was aware of the thing termed 'male gaze' on a subconscious level. The assumption that women are desirable lived in me as I grew up into a lesbian. I mean, the whole media effects different people differently, a lot of people don't get that from it. The equation is mild prosopagnosia + male gaze + female = lesbian in my case, but more girls get a complex where they think of themselves as being watched.
So, I think of myself as a lesbian. That is an important part of my identity. Yet, one movie in which the camera lingers on a dude with ten costumes smiling for his audience and I'm looking up photos of Tom Hiddleston and drawings of Loki hugging everyone.
Ehh, it's not like I didn't look at yaoi stuff before, anyways. It's not really manly enough to put me off, and it is mostly the manliness that puts me off dudes anyways.. It's just weird how much Hollywood spectacle changes what I'm focused on.
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